Cupcakes, Sleepless Nights & Banana Slurpees!

Oh my dear sweet blog! I am so sorry that I haven't visited you in 5 months! Please forgive me.

My life has been somewhat calm, yet hectic at the same time. How is that possible you ask? Well it is! I can't neccessarily explain every aspect of it, but trust me, it is possible!

I have some medical issues that need tending, actually... medical issues that need surgery! YIKES! Totally not looking forward to that! But I'm looking forward to hopefully, having more energy and becoming the person I once was before all of this. Oh! And I am looking forward to playing some tennis! ::sighs!::

I still have a very hard time sleeping... I have the best intentions of going to bed at a reasonable time, but sometimes, as I am flipping through the channels, trying to ease my mind, I catch an episode of Law and Order... doesn't matter which one... but I have been somewhat addicted to it. Although, if I am ONE minute late from when it starts, I refuse to watch it. It is a show that deserves to be watched to its fullest hour! And just when you think its the end of the episode, and the bad guy/gal has been caught... they start a whole new episode! And of course, you're hooked! But seriously, when I try to be good and go to bed- I end up just staring at the ceiling... and watching the clock tick away... 1am becomes 245am... and then that becomes 332am and it just keeps going until my eyes give up and decides to close for a few hours... BUT then... my sweet cat Sonic (in a sarcastic tone!) wants to play at 7am... and I am NOT having it... so I get out of bed... my eyes are barely focused and I pick Sonic up and remove him from the room and close the door. Just when I think I can go back to bed... the trash truck either comes, or the yard people come! Oooh! How I dislike those mornings... and I end up trying to fall asleep again, with all the pillows over my head!

I have had alot of things to think about lately... surgery being on top of that list. I am absolutely terrified. Everyone wants to console you and tell you that its going to be just fine, and it makes you feel good for a little bit... but then you start to have these crazy thoughts run through your head... or you have people call your hopsital, Cripler Tripler (Tripler, being the hospitals name!). AND of course watching shows like Grey's Anatomy, House, or Private Practice doesn't help... because you start developing more "what if" thoughts in your head... I mean seriously, try going to sleep after that! I think I may play hookie the day of the surgery! Shhhh! I know, I know, not the best choice... but, right now, it seems that way! I think I am going to have to be dragged out of my house when that day comes... or I am going to have to be bribed with a banana slurpee from 7Eleven... ALTHOUGH, I don't think I'm allowed to have anything before the surgery. Damn. Actually... the doctor even mentioned a dinner that consister of jello and a caprisun. I mean really!?!? WHO eats that for DINNER!?! (Me, apparently).

Right now I'm feeling a bit anxious... not too sure why... just have too much to think about... UGH! Blog, I have cupcake calling my name... it claims it will take my mind off of things for a brief moment... so I will go and entertain its claim!